Four weeks ago today, as I was taking my morning shower, I found a lump in my left breast. The past four weeks have been a whirlwind of diagnostic appointments, consultations, and decisions. This is all uncharted territory for me as God has blessed me with 63 years of health and physical well-being. My next steps are: chemo to shrink the size of the lump and kill off any spreading of cancer cells, lumpectomy, and radiation. I am confident in the team of doctors/medical staff working on my treatment and care and am positive about the fight ahead. I am surrounded by loving family, my church community, and many friends who are supporting me in prayer, and practical help as the need arises.
So why the blog? I'm not sure exactly! I'm hoping it will make communication updates easier for me and for you. But besides posts of treatment progress, I'm thinking of keeping a diary of sorts that focuses on the inner whirlwind of my heart--that's the Grace Walking part where the real "stuff" happens! God has given me an amazing peace and calm so far that I can only attribute to His Presence in me and to the hundreds of prayers already committed on my behalf. I'm not concerned with the "why" question, or even with the "how am I going to get through this" question, because I know that God has me and He is GOOD!
A few of you, maybe even many of you, are thinking that I'm not being authentic or realistic, that I should be crying out in anger and fear at this totally unexpected diagnosis of breast cancer. I'm inviting you to stick with me and watch how Jesus shows up in this journey. Watch me grace walking--I know it won't be easy, and I know I will stumble and fall along the way but I know God will never leave me or forsake me. He has proven himself to be loving and faithful over 63 years of life experiences including major struggles and trials for me and my loved ones. I know He's here for me now!